and the Lord has been faithful in helping us deal with our disappointment.
I spent some time (but not as much as you would think) playing the "what if" game...."what if the birthdad threatened her?"..."what if they can't afford to care for her?"...what if...what if...what if...and the answer is always the same. You can "what if" a situation to death and things won't change, only God knows the beginning from the end and I trust Him.
As I was praying Saturday night I felt like I was being challenged by the Lord to "get my praise on" Sunday morning. A few church families are on our prayer chain and I had told them about "M" changing her mind. I knew that they would be watching me at church wondering how I was doing and I was bound and determined to give God the glory despite my disappointment.
Our church is open to people coming to the front of the church during praise and worship and I tell you I was up there praising with all of my might. Praising God that the next day was going to be our 22nd anniversary...praising God that I have two very special children...praising God for a wonderful church family...and truly the list goes on and on. It was a precious...precious time, I actually at one point forgot that the rest of the church was there, it was just me and God.
My desire is to press forward and see what happens...Charles and I need to discuss this further but he has not put the brakes on yet!
It is amazing how good it feels to "blog"...what a funny little word. There are only a few of you who even knows this blog exists!
Many blessings to those who read this....thank you for allowing me to share with you.
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